yar i know it's terribly cheatergong for me to go and see one quiz on someone else's blog and then rip that quiz and at the same time post up a dozen other quizzes..

but blogthings.com is so terribly addictive...

Your Personality Is

Idealist (NF) You are a passionate, caring, and unique person. You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals. You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily. Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings. You seek out other empathetic people to befriend. Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships. In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily. At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career. With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone. As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style. On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours.

The Three Question Personality Test

What Your Dreams Mean...

Your dreams seem to show that you're a bit disturbed... but nothing serious. You may have a problem you're trying to work out in your sleep. Your dreams tend to reflect your insecurities. You have a very vivid imagination and a rich creative mind.

What Do Your Dreams Mean?

People Envy Your Compassion

You have a kind heart and an unusual empathy for all living creatures. You tend to absorb others' happiness and pain. People envy your compassion, and more importantly, the connections it helps you build. And compassionate as you are, you feel for them.

What Do People Envy About You?

Your Ideal Pet is a Cat

You're both aloof, introverted, and moody. And your friends secretly wish that you were declawed!

What's Your Ideal Pet?

You're a Romantic Kisser

For you, kissing is all about feeling the romance You love to kiss under the stars or by the sea The perfect kiss involves the perfect mood It's pretty common for kisses to sweep you off your feet

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

You Are: 60% Dog, 40% Cat

You are a nice blend of cat and dog. You're playful but not too needy. And you're friendly but careful. And while you have your moody moments, you're too happy to stay upset for long.

Are You More Cat or Dog?

Cars

Stiller night alone
when the roar of cars waves crash crashing
into my room.
Cars, I wonder. Where, why,
thousand stories, one for each car.

I see a story for everyone,
solitude becomes loneliness
and I want to know my where, why,
know my own story.

hello again...

work has settled into an easy rhythm; waking up at the necessary time (sometimes of course lazing a little longer in bed), having breakfast with Oprah, the commute to town, and then getting ready to meet and greet all the wonderful (and not to miss out weird) people that we call shoppers.

it is, really, quite fun...

i guess i'm really blessed that the people that i work with every day (excluding the customers, that is) are nice, funny people that make the unavoidable lull between brisk hours pass by much faster..

every day i see so many people doing things that they'd rather not do. i can see how we all have to submit to that once in a while, but to do something you quite have no interest for for a living, and to immerse yourself in it every day of your life and then bemoan a meaningless, even painful existence...

somehow, although i know where i want to go and what i want to do, i worry sometimes that this may be a universal constant that few souls truly escape from.

why is it that we celebrate and laud the people who dare to make dreams come true, but so few of us step out to do what we really want to? maybe the world would really be a better place if we all dared to do what we really dream of doing.

i feel so childish asking questions like this..
not that i'm feeling bad, or down, or anything like that...

but sometimes, ranting at the world makes no difference but to make oneself feel better..

so the new year has started..

quite quietly for me, i must say.. i hardly saw it coming...
but then and again i'm never much of a new year kinda person...

work has taken up most of my time.. and in between work, practice, writing, arranging, and in general preparing for what i hope will be a very musical future.. i like the way i have something to do everyday, and that makes time pass so much faster, and saves idle minds like mine unnecessary pondering over useless things.

like yesterday when i had a particularly troubling dream.

it was one of those dreams that you know exactly who every character in the dream is because of the things you tell them and how you feel when you see them, but you never remember their faces. i remember what i said and did and felt, but i don't remember ever seeing the faces of the people i saw in my dream.

it was a particularly troubling dream because it makes me fear that after all this time and people and experiences i'm still stuck in a rut. but then i wake up and the dream is swallowed into the subconscious. and it's like drinking tea - all that is left is an aftertaste, and even then, barely the memory of a taste.

carrying that memory with me around the rest of the day i try to see if the dream means anything, but then i cannot see how it could be relevant in any way. i remember leaving that part of my life behind so long ago, and looking around my life now i find that i did leave it behind.

so now i'm wondering why i dreamt what i did...

hmm...