a very exhaustive (in content and to read) analysis of my birthday and name...
interesting...
i am now convinced that i am not alone in my verbosity...

credits go to PaulSadowski.Com for the name and birthday analyses...


Your date of conception was on or about 19 June 1985.
You were born on a Wednesday under the astrological sign Pisces.
Your Life path number is 3.

The number 3 Life Path is one that emphasizes expression, sociability, and creativity as the lesson to be learned in this life. Here we are apt to find the entertainers of the world, bright, effervescent, sparkling people with very optimistic attitudes. A truly gifted 3 possesses the most exceptional creative skills, normally in the verbal realm, writing, speaking, acting, or similar endeavors. The lesson to be learned with a 3 life path is that of achievement through expression. The bright side of this path stresses harmony, beauty and pleasures; of sharing your creative talents with the world. Capturing your capability in creative self-expression is the highest level of attainment for this life path. The characteristics of the 3 are warmth and friendliness, a good conversationalist, social and open. A good conversationalist both from the standpoint of being a delight to listen to, but even more importantly, one who has the ability to listen to others. Accordingly, the life path 3 produces individuals who are always a welcome addition to any social situation and know how to make others feel at home. The creative imagination is present, if sometimes latent, as the 3 may not be moved to develop his talent. The approach to life tends to be exceedingly positive, however, and your disposition is almost surely sunny and open-hearted. You effectively cope with all of the many setbacks that occur in life and readily bounce back for more. It is usually easy for you to deal with problems because you can freely admit the existence of problems without letting them get you down. You have good manners and seem to be very conscious of other people's feelings and emotions. Life is generally lived to the fullest, often without much worry about tomorrow. You are not very good at handling money because of a general lack of concern about it. You spend it when you have it and don't when you don't.

On the negative side, a 3 may be so delighted with the joy of living that the life becomes frivolous and superficial. You may scatter your abilities and express little sense of purpose. The 3 can be an enigma, for no apparent reason you may become moody and tend to retreat. Escapist tendencies are not uncommon with the 3 life path, and you find it very hard to settle into one place or one position. Guard against being critical of others, impatient, intolerant, or overly optimistic.

Typically, the life path 3 gives an above-average ability in some art form. This can encompass painting, interior decorating, landscaping, crafts, writing, music, or the stage, or all of the above. You are apt to be a happy, inspired person, constantly seeking the stimuli of similar people. Your exuberant nature can take you far, especially if you are ever able to focus your energies and talents.

The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2446501.5.
The golden number for 1986 is 11.
The epact number for 1986 is 19.
The year 1986 was not a leap year.

As of 10/22/2005 12:35:20
You are 19 years old.
You are 235 months old.
You are 1,023 weeks old.
You are 7,164 days old.
You are 171,948 hours old.
You are 10,316,915 minutes old.
You are 619,014,920 seconds old.
You are 2.80391389432485 dog years old.
There are 141 days till your next birthday on which your cake will have 20 candles


There are 10 letters in your name.
Those 10 letters total to 34
There are 5 vowels and 5 consonants in your name.

Your number is: 7
The characteristics of #7 are: Analysis, understanding, knowledge, awareness, studiousness, meditating.

The expression or destiny for #7:
Thought, analysis, introspection, and seclusiveness are all characteristics of the expression number 7. The hallmark of the number 7 is a good mind, and especially good at searching out and finding the truth. You are so very capable of analyzing, judging and discriminating, that very little ever escapes your observation and deep understanding. You are the type of person that can really get involved in a search for wisdom or hidden truths, often becoming an authority on whatever it is your are focusing on. This can easily be of a technical or scientific nature, or it may be religious or occult, it matters very little, you pursue knowledge with the same sort of vigor. You can make a very fine teacher, or because of a natural inclination toward the spiritual, you may become deeply emerged in religious affairs or even psychic explorations. You tend to operate on a rather different wavelength, and many of your friends may not really know you very well. The positive aspects of the 7 expression are that you can be a true perfectionist in a very positive sense of the word. You are very logical, and usually employ a quite rational approach to most things you do. You can be so rational at times that you almost seem to lack emotion, and when you are faced with an emotional situation, you may have a bit of a problem coping with it. You have excellent capabilities to study and learn really deep and difficult subjects, and to search for hidden fundamentals. At full maturity you are likely to be a very peaceful and poised individual.

If there is an over supply of the number 7 in your makeup, the negative aspects of the number may be apparent. The chief negative of 7 relates to the limited degree of trust that you may have in people. A tendency to be highly introverted can make you a bit on the self-centered side, certainly very much self-contained . Because of this, you are not very adaptable, and you may tend to be overly critical and intolerant. You really like to work alone, at your own pace and in your own way. You neither show or understand emotions very well.

Your Soul Urge number is: 3
A Soul Urge number of 3 means:
With the Soul Urge number 3 your desire in life is personal expression, and generally enjoying life to its fullest. You want to participate in an active social life and enjoy a large circle of friends. You want to be in the limelight, expressing your artistic or intellectual talents. Word skills may be your thing; speaking, writing, acting, singing. In a positive sense, the 3 energy is friendly, outgoing and always very social.

You have a decidedly upbeat attitude that is rarely discouraged; a good mental and emotional balance.

The 3 Soul Urge gives intuitive insight, thus, very high creative and inspirational tendencies. The truly outstanding trait shown by the 3 Soul Urge is that of self-expression, regardless of the field of endeavor.

On the negative side, you may at times become too easygoing and too optimistic, tending to scatter forces and accomplish very little. Often, the excessive 3 energy produces non-stop talkers. Everyone has faults, but the 3 soul urge doesn't appreciate having these pointed out.

Your Inner Dream number is: 22
An Inner Dream number of 22 means:
You dream of being a master organizer and a builder of monumental projects; of guiding a truly huge endeavor. Your secret fantasy is to think big and imagine what could be done for the world. You may also dream of the huge rewards.

i don't think anyone got here...
i didn't...
haha...

hello dahlings...

i've been beseiged by comments these days that i don't write anything that makes any sense at all...

there's a lot i have to say... about that...

and in general i'm just a talkative person...

but lets just address the abovementioned "about that"...
i talk to myself regularly... and when i do so the dialogue is often volatile and meandering in its myriad topics... this, however, is by no means indicative of a mind entrenched in madness...

my musings here... thus... are just verbatim copies... sometimes... of what goes on within my mind...
more often than not i try to censor and make some sense out of it so that you plebeian people can have a glimpse of what's going on in up-there...

but sometimes i go on a frenzy and i just let loose everything i have to say...

also... there's this little issue of what i want this place for... why i keep filling these pages with endless crap...
it's cos i think that i would want to remember what i was like as a person... so that i can look back and see how i've changed over time...

rather than keep a log of my daily activities...

two things...
uno... i don't have much daily going-ons that are fantastically interesting... if there are chances are i would write about them... work doesn't count...
and duo... if i wanted to rememer what i did... i could always visit the blogs of my friends who might just do a what-i-did-today and carry it off with far more style and panache than i could ever imagine to carry...

like if i did a what-i-did-today it would likely look like the log of a hired assassin who's been tailing me to gain precious information on my habits...

thus rather than tell everybody how i spent the day i think it would be more interesting (to me and only me it seems but what the heck) to write about my current mental state...

then when i come back again in months time it will be like i'm talking to myself from the past and i can see what i was like before... (and now i've done this before and most of the time i cringe when i read what i've written...)

haha... so there...

I walked the village at four o'clock

It was raining then, I remember. No, wait,
the rain had just exhausted itself, spent and lame. But
the sun-baked ground still wanted its
deception of softness, and called back the sulphurous spirits
of just-dead rain, clouding, mulling, till the ground was
a lake, shimmery, misty. Those silent twirls screamed at their
steaming resurrection.
And just beside this open ground,
newborn mice lay limp on flower stalks,
lost in bushes. They had skin like petals, pregnant
with fur; they were content consumed by
lidded oblivion, their eyelashes slivers like sickles
guarding the gates to those full round orbs of wonderment.
But they were sleeping, but they were sleeping. And I walked on,
and saw the buildings around me all shut up and
huddled, like galaxies, light-years
between each cluster, and
I was there in the middle. Even in their groups each building
was a star, apart from another at a distance
only stars know, and I was there, the
lone hut in the village. I was cold, the wind was
mourning the dead rain. But even then its death-dances were
lifting those very spirits up. It will rain again, and then the mice will
awaken and their eyes, beautiful eyes, will gaze in
lovely wonderment.