i think it's time to say a few words of thanks...
to a very special person...

and He's right up there now...

this year has been pretty good so far... and i think mere luck and hard work have exhausted themselves quite long ago...

there's got to be more than that at work...

straight distinctions... i know i studied hard... i can well remember now the things that i gave up then...
but still... thank you... i know you did something there for me...

all the best tutors in the school were my teachers...
by chance...?

i got where i am now... i got the chance... a pretty precious one at that... to pursue my passion and love...
and that i really have to say a big thank you for...
that's really something you know...

there's a total of fourteen of us in there... out of 1600 soldiers...
i really don't think the chance throw of the dice alone could have gotten my name down on that list...

now to the rest of you mortals reading this...
i know that i don't normally come across as a particularly religious person...
i'm not...

religion is a guide... and a human one at that...
it's a device... a mechanism of humans to cope with the unbearability of the unknown...
religion is perhaps as important as schooling...
and God... even more important than wisdom...

i'm not religious... you all know that... but despite that i still know that there's got to be something up there...

i seldom talk about it because it's such a complex thing... so many sides and facets... all so sensitive...

anyway... don't think that i feel that religions are useless and religious organisations are all seriously wrong...
there's plenty of things to be gained from such memberships...

but my studies... all the things i've seen and read and learnt over the years have shown that to give absolute power to interpret the words and intent of the Absolute... that often results in tragedy...
there've a lot of wars fought in the name of religion... many lives forsaken... i don't think that things were meant to be that way...

if someone says that we've got to do something... think a certain way... that some are martyrs and others fools... that an act is condoned or condemned...
we shouldn't just believe him... even if he says that his words come from Him...

ultimately what i'm trying to say is that religion hasn't always been perfect... and even now it's still far from perfect... but that's no reason to reject the supernatural, the omnipotent and, really, what i feel to be the undeniable... that's no reason to discard the essence just because of a flawed vessel...

anyway... for the rest who think that this is seriously weird...

just take it that the real Nachtilera will be back in a few days...