hello there...
many people have been asking if i'm ok-

yes of course you are! now say "thank you" to all those nice concerned people.

yes... thank you for asking... i'm fine...
well i suppose then i have to explain-

the rather alarming spate of depressing posts recently. hmm, yes you do need to explain all that.

you see now...
the very purpose of this place is to talk about my life-

tsk!

yes how narcissistic i know... live with it...
anyways...
the point is that... well...
life's kinda-

sad-

yes sad... i know...

and thus my posts have been sad...
but no... i'm not depressed...

not clinically anyway...
so don't worry...

and i'm not schizophrenic either... really-

really?

would that voice-

kindly shove it? hmm? now is that what you want?

yes. shut up. before i-

ooh. i'm so scared.
please, you can do better than that.

i think.

well actually now, i'm not very sure you-

argh...

i feel off my rocker...
but just for the heck of it i shall continue this mad internal dialogue...

oh. so now we're trying to look like the poor tortured artist soul.
how pitiful.

there comes a time, about now, when you come to the sudden realization that you've been broadcasting the things you've always thought were just your silent thoughts.

sort of like a Homer Simpson moment.

you can say "d'oh" now.

d'oh.

gosh i need a life now don't i...?

hmm now don't you?

shut up...

oh ok!

grr...

grr...

yes as you all can see i'm terribly bored...

i have also discovered i now have a pathological fear of becoming an idiot...
idiot... in the plainest sense of the word...

i don't even think i'll get a chance for idiot-savant...

thus the need to show that unlike most idiots... i possess the mental capabilities required to process complex, multi-layered thought...

wait...

apologies...
i am not "unlike most idiots"...

i am... quite simply...
not an idiot...

how silly of me...

haha...

haha. nervous laughter ensues.

haha...

argh...

i feel dumb...

and mad.

and mad...

yes mad.

now keep this in mind...

now are you sure you want to go there? haha...
don't lie to yourself.

madness and genius...
close enough for me...

haha...

bow down to my genius...

madness.