ok everybody just ignore the last post...

i just got nostalgic for a moment for maths... which admittedly i had given up on not too long ago...
oh well...

i have just gotten word that my alumni might be performing again...
sometime next year... before September...

ok everybody who doesn't want to hear me whine, rant and rave can just skip the remainder of this post...
thank you...
come again tomorrow...
or whenever i post again...
whatever...

so i come home and i settle down and i catch my breath from the rather exhausting paper...
i get online... and someone comes and asks if i can go down for practice tomorrow to conduct a session...
so i go hmm i'm not too sure... confirm with me again tomorrow...?
and so he goes ok...

and then he says they're trying new peices tomorrow...
for a concert...

huh what concert...?

lovely... so i've waited this long for a real concert... not some 15 minute filler...
and it's probably going to be a miss for me...
and yes i know you've all heard this ad nauseam... but still...

it's all 'cos i'm away serving the nation...

lovely...

and the World Music Competition...
that's probably gonna be a miss too...

ah so i'm whining again...
fine... i'll be quiet soon...

oh...? i'm being blinded by rigid ideals and futile dreams...?
yes i hear you... i'm attending...

i should be doing something to put food on the table and a shirt on my back...
well yes...

forget it...

grow up...

wake up...

there's no need to leave niceties and comforts in the comments...
really... it's not the sarcasm speaking here i assure you...

seriously...

i'm fine...

come tomorrow i'll be all fruit and flowers... irritatingly full of myself...
confident... outspoken...
all those many things that i sometimes dislike so much i even surprise myself...

i'm just tired...

there's also no need to tell me again that once i'm out of this i'll look back and laugh...
that's all fine and peachy... but it's also stuff for tomorrow...

there's also no need to tell me this is only a phase... everyone goes through this... when you're older you'll see...
let me tell you now... in all seriousness...
i hate that...

i'm sorry... i truly am... that i have to drag all you people through this... even when i know we're all tired and cranky and want something really nice and funny to read...